negligent but not without reason

negligent but not without reason

I can't explain it, but on top of fibro fog (google it) I'm also OCD and ADD so, I get fully involved in a project and eventually I forget about it and start another project. It could be a personal blog, photo blog, my journal, sketchbook, phone "note" taking apps, Instagram, painting.... I moved on from this "project" some time ago, but after writing a "journal" post on my phone and the app making them all private I got annoyed and said wtf, I'll go back to my aper|moi and transform it into something new from it's ashes. Like the magnificent Phoenix. I'm truly fascinated by these creatures, the stores, mythology, and it is part of this back piece tattoo idea I've had for years. I doubt I'll pull it off as a tattoo, but maybe some day I'll be able to paint it. From this day forth, I will do my best to share myself with whoever cares to see. I will be raw, unedited, adult yet at times childish, and with all these things and more I will be me.

Friday, February 8, 2013

forget me

just woke up coughing so hard I couldn't breathe and forced me to throw up. I don't even know what triggers it anymore. I wish I could be permanently numb perhaps a coma so I'm alive but not "awake" to deal with these problems. My health has me scared. It seems though my doc is nice, and hot, each visit doesn't bring me any closer to relief. I just want it all to stop.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

black haze

today went by like a black haze.
felt nothing.
thought nothing.
did nothing.
was nothing.
am nothing but this blaze haze set upon my soul like a manevolent spirit making home.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Tuesday, June 21, 2011